Sabaydii,
Here is the continuation of a series 'Coming home' entitled 'Talking to a monk'
Hakphaang,
One of the things I would like to do
While still in Muang Lao
Was to talk to monks
See how they fared in the new Laos
That afternoon
I got a chance
Walking was what I did
To Wat OngTu
More colorful than ever
With a Thai style glittering
Later known
The Thai poured in money
Heavily in this temple
Nobody knew why
Or maybe
This temple was where the old regime
Swore its officials
A reminder of the past
Where the Thai influence was
So unmistakable
With a heavy heart
Seeing what the Siamese could do
I strode into the temple compound
And let the bitter past envelop me
I remembered
Back in the old regime
At the entrance of the temple
Seeing two unmovable guards
Standing there
Hands clutching the rifles
Inside
Lied the casket of my brother-in-law
Prematurely cut short
When his T-28 fighter plane
Crashed on the way back home
Life
No one could tell
When it would be the last breath
Seeing you one day
And the next you were gone
With my hands joined together
In the traditional gesture of Wai
I prayed for his soul and all Lao souls
Never again would we die
Fighting in the useless war
Didn't know
How long I was in the reverie
When I opened my eyes
A pair of gentle eyes was watching me
They were from a kind-looking monk
Witnessing the many twists and turns of life
Mine was no less strange
With calmness in his voice
The monk asked me
How I was doing
And if I needed a glass of water
Answering in a negative
I told him
Uncharacteristic of me
How we as a people had suffered
Turmoil after turmoil
War after war
When peace finally arrived
It was worse than ever
A tenth of the population left the country
Even the cruel Siamese didn't come that close
To what we did to ourselves
The monk looked at me
See how devastated I was
He just said
This like all things would pass
With the passage of time
Nothing would stay forever
Just don't harbor any hatred
Any ill will
A brighter day of Muang Lao
Will sure come
Then he told a story
How Wat OngTu was ravaged
At the hand of the Siamese
Leaving only the big statue
Stood against the test of time
Not sure
What got into me
His words poured forth like a solace
For a dying man
Trying to cling on to anything
Of hope of life
With my head bowed again
This time to a monk
A follower of Buddha
I took off
And let my prepared question
Vanish into the thin air
What else do I need now?
But hope for the future
And trust in ourselves
One day our turn will come
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