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My love my life

Sabaydii,

 

Here is the continuation of a series ‘Coming home’ entitled ‘My love my life’

 

Hakphaang,

Kongkeo Saycocie

 

My love my life

 

 

With an awkward smile in your lip

Not knowing that’s the right thing to do

You look at me

Like a girl on a first date

 

Should I say?

You look beautiful

With a minimum make-up

 

My dear

Don’t you ever think

I will be so sophisticated

To see you for less than you really are

 

Far away

May I come from

Seeing many beautiful things

But none captures my heart

Than the way you do

 

Tens of years have gone by

The murky Mekong has

Time after time

Leapt up across the shore

Kissing at your feet

Before receding

To wherever it came from

And so do I

 

Like our first date

Long before I was even born

You held my hand

Steadied my baby walk

 

How could I ever pay you back?

 

This very life I have

And those many lives to come

Are all but for you

 

Please my love

Take my hand

Tired as it may be

It adores you

 

When danger comes

It will turn into a fist

Stronger than the steel

 

Look deep into my eyes

Moist as they may be

Never again will I leave you

 

Like a first date

Forever cherished in memories

We meet again

 

With an awkward smile on your face

I kiss your lip

Wiping away all your concerns

For my heart will be always with you

 

9.24.03


Lak Muang at Wat SiMuang

 

  The land of temples

Sabaydii,

 

Here is the continuation of a series ‘Coming home’ entitled ‘the land of temples’

 

Hakphaang,

Kongkeo Saycocie

 

The land of temples

 

 

It was said

Vientiane was lining up with temples

Too numerous to count

Any where you go

Any corner you step into

Temple is waiting for you

 

Samsenthai road

Is the epitome

Of Lao absorption into Buddhism

 

In a distance of less than one mile

Lied 9 temples

 

At one time or another

Side by side

And front to front

From the north end is Wat Inpeng

And Wat OngTu

Where you could still see

A carved wood made of 3-head elephant

On the temple door

 

And the south end is Wat Simuang

Where people believed

The most sacred temple

In Vientiane and all of Muang Lao herself

 

Undoubtedly

The inside of this temple

Was almost gold

With the money pouring in

From everywhere

Even from the neighboring Thailand

 

Was told

This temple is the site of Lak Muang

Where a pregnant woman

Threw herself onto

And became a city guardian spirit

 

With a bouquet of lotus flowers

Bought from a Lao Isan

I laid it down at the Lak Muang Lao

Knelt down and prayed

 

If only I could be granted one wish

I won’t wish for my own riches

But the riches of my country

And in its riches

May it be at the hands of all Lao

Lao Isan and LaoNork included

Phieng!

 

9.11.03

Searching for my old self

Sabaydii,

 

Here is the continuation of a series ‘Coming home’ entitled ‘Searching for my own self’

 

Hakphaang,

Kongkeo Saycocie

 

Searching for my old self

 

Only the first few days in Vientiane

I already felt tired

Tired of what I had seen

And tied of what I would see

The same old things

I thought

Muang Lao was beyond those

 

With a tired heart

I took refuge at Wat Phakeo

The very one

Princess Khieokhom – Chao Anou’s sister

Hid herself from the invading Siamese

 

Like any other days

Tourists thronged the place

Once housed the emerald Buddha

Phakeo now in Bangkok

 

Inside

Thai tourists flaunted their Thai currency

Before dropping it into the donation box

Some even handed it to the temple keeper

Drawing his big smile and profuse thanks

 

The Thai the very ones

Causing so much destruction in this land

In this sacred temple

Were wholeheartedly welcome

Even more than our own people

Now living abroad

My heart couldn’t help to ask why

 

It was that eerie

With just a few drops of crumbs

And a parade of Thai royalty

Our KhuamPenLao is no more

 

If that so

Why didn’t we sell this land

And become our much beloved – the Thai?

Why fought and lost our ancestors’ lives?

For nothing?

 

Would Princess Khieokhom take refuge in this temple

If this sacred ground was to be violated

By the very ones who stabbed and bled our hearts?

 

Oh Quon Lao

Less than 500 years ago

We were but a power in this part of the world

The Siamese dared not touch us

The Vietnamese were but a weakling

 

Just when we became

What we were

Only heaven knows

 

As painful as it could be

I glared at the Thai tourists

Of what they represented

And of what we became

 

Like my own sad story

Unveiled before my very eyes

I stood there motionless

 

Is there a refuge left for me in this world?

Or the Thai are going to do to us

As they did at the time of Princess Khieokhom

 

Only destiny knows!

 

8.28.03

Finding my old self

Sabaydii,

 

Here is the continuation of a series ‘Coming home’ entitled ‘Finding my own self’

 

Hakphaang,

Kongkeo Saycocie

 

Finding my own self

 

 

At Wat Sisaket

Across the street from Wat Phakeo

I glanced back

At Chao Saysettha’s temple

 

Even from a distance

The tall pillars

Supporting Wat Phaokeo’s three tiered roof

Were strikingly imposing

 

Adding to the sliding magnificent roof

With the Xopha and perching nagas

Protecting the grand LanXang temple

I came to see

What it meant to be Lao

At the height of this golden era

 

Admittedly

I was broiling with anger

When I was told

The Thai were going to renovate the place

Adding their glittering color

To our brownish grey

Wiping away our distinctively Lao style

 

May the like of Chao Souvanna Phouma

Who restored Wat Phakeo to its present form

Helped keep the Thai dirty hands

From soiling what is ours and ours alone

 

Let them smear other temples

With their glittering wealth

But never over our sacred Wat Phakeo

Let this be Lao forever

 

Now at Chao Anou’s temple

What a strange feeling

Being here

I for the first time

Felt like

I was at the presence of something

Greater than myself

Something of my bigger soul

 

At every step I took

I felt like

Something powerful was watching me

With great intensity

As if to say

Was I Lao enough

Or just a pretender

Ready to crumble

At the sight of danger?

 

When I looked at the Buddha statues

With some of their heads broken

I felt like I was thrust

Into an existence question

 

Was I satisfied

Leaving this land for a greener pasture?

As if I were but an ungrateful

 

Painful I was

To walk in this temple

Knowing full well

This was the last bastion of Lao defiance

 

8.28.03

 


Wat Phakeo _ a prime of Lao architecture

 



Finding my old self (2)

Sabaydii,

 

Here is the continuation of a series ‘Coming home’ entitled ‘Finding my own self’

 

Hakphaang,

Kongkeo Saycocie

 

Finding my own self (2)

 

 

Getting inside the Sim

Where mural painting

Depicting the life of Buddha

Pervading the entire walls

 

I let my eyes wander

Not to the painting

Impressive as it may be

But at the candle bearer

Made at the time of Chao Anou

A symbol of Lao’s renewal sense of themselves

 

Hard to say

Why this candle bearer caught my attention

Made out of fine wood

The two ends stood two Nagas

With their heads badly torn

Bu still rose up defiantly

Against who?

We all knew so well

 

The strands that made of the body of the Nagas

Consisted of 7 pieces

Tightly strung together

Signifying all Lao Muang Lao

As one indestructible whole

 

The way the Naga body

Knitting together as one

I couldn’t help but asking

Was this going to be a moment

Like this again in the future?

 

In front of the colossal Buddha statue

Where the candle bearer stood

A young couple

Sat in the Lao way

Praying silently

 

Then a horde of Thai tourists

Popped their heads in

Accompanied by the voice of the Lao guide

Recounting the story of this great temple

With not a word denouncing

Siamese heartlessness

 

Lastly

An old guy took a seat behind me

And just stared at the candle bearer

As if he found it for the very first time

 

As suddenly as he appeared

He took off

Leaving me alone

For how long I don’t know

Until the gatekeeper came in

And told me it was time to close

 

With my head bowed

Unconcerned with the gatekeeper’s eyes

I kissed the ground

For this is the least I could do

For an unyielding Lao spirit

Refusing to die with time

As manifested by this temple

And Chao Anou himself

 

8.28.03